The conflict within

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Its difficult for me to pinpoint when it all started. Lets just say, it may have been part of the questioning attitude that we adopted during our first encounter with philosophy. Add to that my interest in history. So I became acquainted with socialism and its crude derivative communism. As part of the questioning attitude, I questioned some of the basic things that I had grown to accept as an adult. In the initial stages, though I questioned, but never challenged. So to say never crossed the threshold. Perhaps I was afraid of the chaos that would ensue if I couldn’t find the right answers. Then one day during an informal talk with a scholar, I felt as if I was not alone. Perhaps this was more of a stage of life that many in quest of knowledge passed through. And how can I forget that reply from my mentor when I shared my dilemma with him. It was something to the effect of “CONGRATULATIONS sonny. You have come of age”,
Then came that email that someone gave to me. Oh but have I have yet not divulged the troubling issue. It was the need for religion, the Existence of God; and but perhaps the root of it all; what is God?
Before I had stumbled upon that last question, my inquiries always led me to a negative result. The theory that everything came into being as an accident seemed more and more plausible after each enquiry.
But it seemed painful to accept the hollowness of that, entire one had been vehemently advocating earlier. The first threat that I saw was a life outside the communal setup, a setup that I had learnt to cherish.
Could it be that all the prophets, sages and the wise men had tricked the masses into believing that there really was some God. Perhaps it had something to do with the fact that man has always wanted to believe in the super natural. It seems that somehow by nature man loves the supernatural. Thus we may ridicule the Stone Age man regarding the forces of nature as God. Perhaps that was beyond his comprehension. But we in this 21st century are doing exactly the same. All that our Mind fails to answer or dare not question yet, is attributed to God.
So why religion? So far I have not been able to come up with a more plausible answer than the fact that it was a design to bring order in place. It was a necessity for civilization. And perhaps that’s the reason that organized religion perhaps grew once real civilizations were born. Before that, man not living together, was so fully occupied battling the forces of nature for survival that he could not spare the enterprise to formulate religion. This reminds me of the paradox I read somewhere, whether “God created man, or Man create God?”
But just today a few hours ago a thought crossed. It had actually been showing some glimpses earlier, but today perhaps it was able to manifest itself most clearly. God perhaps is no single entity in itself. It is actually the forces in nature. Quran says “Allah is the nur of the earth and the heavens”. My understanding of the Arabic word “Nur” here here is the spirit or essence of everything. So perhaps it is the name of all the forces in nature. Most scriptures would claim that he is just. Being just, would imply following an established rule of law. Yes nature does follow its established laws. Humans may not have completely understood its complete implications, but yes there are laws in nature, and nature does follow it religiously.