And how well do you know yourself?

There is always an assumption that an individual knows himself best. It seems such an inherent truth that the thought never even consciously enters one’s mind. And yet there are times when unexpected circumstances surprise you and you wonder at yourself, have I always been like this?

Take for instance blogging at 7:00 in the morning. As it is waking up just in time to be at work by 9 is a struggle. Keep on snoozing the 7:30 alarm clock till I know that if I don’t wake up now, there is no way in the world I would be at work on time ( not really required cause I am usually the first ones to arrive and amongst the last to leave in my department, but I like that kind of discipline). And here I am bathed, dressed completely ready at 7:00 waiting for a saner hour to return to work. And just as I am writing this I realize maybe that’s cause I want work to distract me of the other thoughts going on in my mind, thoughts I am struggling to get out of my system.

I was always under the illusion that reason would see me through all circumstances and yet now I realize that there are times when emotions do get the better of me. Even when I have reason sound enough to accept what has happened, emotions refuse to give in and accept it for good. And I am left wondering, will reason always be my liberator? I still haven’t lost faith in reason (having little else that I truly believe in), but am waiting for the time when reason will completely prevail and get the better of my emotions and liberate me.