And how well do you know yourself?

There is always an assumption that an individual knows himself best. It seems such an inherent truth that the thought never even consciously enters one’s mind. And yet there are times when unexpected circumstances surprise you and you wonder at yourself, have I always been like this?

Take for instance blogging at 7:00 in the morning. As it is waking up just in time to be at work by 9 is a struggle. Keep on snoozing the 7:30 alarm clock till I know that if I don’t wake up now, there is no way in the world I would be at work on time ( not really required cause I am usually the first ones to arrive and amongst the last to leave in my department, but I like that kind of discipline). And here I am bathed, dressed completely ready at 7:00 waiting for a saner hour to return to work. And just as I am writing this I realize maybe that’s cause I want work to distract me of the other thoughts going on in my mind, thoughts I am struggling to get out of my system.

I was always under the illusion that reason would see me through all circumstances and yet now I realize that there are times when emotions do get the better of me. Even when I have reason sound enough to accept what has happened, emotions refuse to give in and accept it for good. And I am left wondering, will reason always be my liberator? I still haven’t lost faith in reason (having little else that I truly believe in), but am waiting for the time when reason will completely prevail and get the better of my emotions and liberate me.

Skeptics and disappointments in life

I know am returning after ages but somehow had lost the purpose of blogging altogether. Plus I believe one should blog only when ones got something to say. Well guess had a few interesting thoughts in my mind today and thought would pen them down. Woke up early in the morning anyways, and couldn't sleep again, so thought would blog instead :P

A recent event in my life highlighted yet another role of religion in an individual's life, i.e. the satisfaction/distraction it provides in times of a personal loss or emotional distress. When one loses loved ones, no matter how reasonable one is, if the loss catches you unprepared, it is emotion that gets hold of you first and doesn't let reason prevail, not for a while at least. And if you can't share your grief with anyone else, it gets worse. That's where you realize the support system that religion provides, the easy way out, where you find solace in the belief that everything happening is by design and someone up there is making it all happen with your best interests in mind. But for skeptics theres no such solace on sleepless nights no prayers/incantations to resort to, anything at all to distract you, it really gets tough. Reason eventually starts the remedying process, telling you that life should go on, for disappointments that dont kill you, only make you stronger :).

Important lesson learned, skeptics/agnostics should have really understanding partners or at any rate excellent friends around them, to see them through the lows in their life. Though theres another glitch too, what if one's a bit self contained and doesn't want to share the loss with even the closest friends.

Don't know if the above babble makes any sense to anyone else, or it just comes across as incoherent babble, but then the blog is titled rambler's reflections :P. Anyways cause this blog is as much of a diary to me as a blog, doesn't really matter if its not intelligible to the rest of the world. Though I have a feeling at least some people would be able to relate to it, would love to hear their views on this.